My baby

Typed this up yesterday. It didn't post and most of it was lost so I'll try again. I want to be able to tell my kids how cute they were when they were babies.

Ok, so I've been having a blast with the baby these days. She woke up from her nap just now and when I walked in her room to get her (yah, she's still all trapped in the bed cause we NEVER TOLD her it was ok to get out of the big girl bed) she told me that she has a surprise for me. I was nervously excited since she's decided to start gifting me her boogers lately. She asked me if I wanted to 'way down' with her so I got in the bed. She had her hands closed together and handed me my 'gift'. When I reached out to accept it there was nothing there. I asked her what it was and she replied "a pwesent fow yow". She was also nice enough to give me a kiss and cuddle. I love that she loves.

Has it really been that LONG???

I've been meaning to get on here one of these days to make a little noise. I've needed a place to vent and feel that my poor husband should not have to tolerate my rantings on his own every single day. Sometimes I just need someplace to dump some garbage and move on. That's all a girl's saying.

So, life, kinda kept on moving. Right on, with me just riding the current. I'm still fat. I'm still the mom to many kids. That stuff's all the same. Different...attitude, view of life, view of God and all that is God.

Unfortunately I have to do some mommy/wifey things and go balance the checkbook. I'll be coming back. I have to crap some stuff soon or the wrong person is going to get an earfull.

So, um, things have been a little 'strange' in my world lately. Nothing too crazy. Just busy-ness on a pretty regular basis. I don't have the link to this page saved in my laptop so I only get on this site when I'm at the desktop which seems to be less and less.

Baby is going through a wonderful little phase these days. She's found her 'screaming' voice and she likes to use it. My big kids just keep getting bigger. I am only about two inches taller than my son. He's still trying to find his sense of humor and it gets frustrating some days. He likes to make smart ass comments about anything and everything. His sisters get tired of it too and they let him know. My oldest daughter got to take a trip to NASA in Houston with her girl scout troop a few weekends ago. While she had a great time she told me that she never wants to be that far away from me again. Miss Morgana needs more sleep on a regular basis or she's just cranky. She turned seven on Ap. 11. Time truly does fly sometimes.

Diet wise I'm stuck. I am now comfortably in my size 16 bottoms and XL tops. I can squeeze into a pair of 14 jeans that I have. And I will wear them out in public. I'm just at the point where I'm ready to be done. I'm done 'dieting'. I wanna live and eat. Know what I mean? I'm still losing but it's getting slower and slower all the time.

Anyway, that's my world right now. Just trying to keep up with everything that's been going on these days. The older my kids get the more there is to do.

Good morning

Okay, afternoon maybe. It's noon and so far today I've showered...well, that's about it. I've been catching up on my one board. Things are crazy there. Some people seem to just want to cause drama. I'm glad I'm not part of it.

Kids don't have school today so I think we'll be finding something to do once the baby gets up from her nap. Maybe a park if it's warm enough by then. I suppose it just depends on how late she naps. I've got to get kids showered and what not tho. So I guess we'll see.

Not much going on in the household. Drama with my fam in IN. Just trying to stay out of it. My sister is a mess. She seems to think that she can blame life mistakes on being the youngest and not being 'perfect'. Honey, ain't no one perfect so stop the blame. She just doesn't want to take responsibility for decisions she's made in her life. And I think that everyone in the family is done dealing with it.

Okay, gonna go make a salad!

Been awhile

Ok, so it's been awhile since I've written in here. Things have been so-so. I feel very wishy washy lately. Very up and then very down. We got our taxes deposited today so I'm feeling very happy. My husband got a raise at work so I'm feeling happy.

I can't seem to sleep at night so I'm tired. I want to sleep in the day and all I do is lay in bed thinking about all the things I should be doing.

So, what is going on here in my home? My kids are huge. I think my son is almost eye to eye with me. Not very comforting. The boy will be taller than me in no time.

We are planning on visiting IN this summer. Hub requested time off from work so we can ALL go. This will be our first real vacation together! I'm pretty excited about that.

One of my cyber buddies is coming to visit me sometime in March. That SOOOO gives me something to look forward to!

Ok, gotta go pay some bills!

Wanna laugh??

Here's a funny little story just to give you your laugh for the day. My friend has this kid that does young astronauts after school most Wednesdays. She picks up both her daughters today and goes and waits for almost ten minutes wondering why the boy has not come out of the school yet. Said friend is smart enough that she reminded the boy that he would be having YA after school and she would be picking him up later. But she still stands and waits until oldest of the daughters says "HE HAS YA"

So, we're home now. One child less than normal. I'll have to go pick up the boy later.

So, I've been having some WOW moments lately. I know that this weight loss thing is supposed to be gradual to stick. They've done studies and all and have said that if you lose your weight at a reasonable amount per week you should be able to keep the weight off. And something like 90% of people that lose significant amounts of weight end up gaining it all back. So, I've been contemplating how I can be one of those in the 10% of losers that keep it off forever.

I still don't have a solid answer for that...I know you have to have a support system in place. I think that I have that. I have an email buddy that I am accountable to for all things diet. Unfortunately, I don't think that my husband would ever tell me if I were getting fat again. He's just not that kind of guy. I have a scale that I step on every single day so I think I would know if I started to regain and be able to stop it before it starts. I am hoping to break the scale addiction when I return to 'normal' and am of normal weight. Maybe I won't feel the need to step on it everyday like the whore I am and see what she has to say. I'd also like to think that when I'm 'normal' I can eat whatever I want and gain a pound. I KNOW that is untrue. I should have a plan but right now I am just so in awe that I have actually stuck with a diet and gotten to where I am today.

Of course that brings other things. I keep thinking 'I've come so far. I can stop any time now." "Oh, a little bite here won't hurt." I've been doing all of this self sabotage lately. Mind you the scale has not jumped up. I'm not 'cheating'. My inner self is just being overly active lately. I can hear her whisper all day. Sometimes she even YELLS at me. It's incredibly bothersome.

Ranting of a lunatic. Can't help it people. Just a few of the many things in my head.

The key to life...

Hehe, thought if I headed it like that you'd be inclined to read??? Yah, well, I found the secret to my strength for daily life...SLEEP. I got home from boy scouts last night and took a benadryl (been having some sinusy issues). I was in bed by 9:30 and sleeping by about 9:31 :) I can remember waking up at some point thinking BATHROOM! I rolled over and slept until my alarm went off. No snooze today or there would have been a puddle in the bed!

Sleep and coffee. My parents sent me this box with the twelve days of coffee for Christmas and I've been checking the flavors out. Today was gingerbread. I shoulda just given it to the other lady I have coffee with but I didn't. Needless to say I dumped the pot out and had to make some regular coffee. I'm on my first real cupa the day.

Finally got word from the renters in our house in IN...they want to close after they close on their house in Florida so they can use the $$ they make from that for a down payment. I'm going to try and call my realtor today and let her know what's going on. I can't wait until it's done and over with. I'd like to be rid of it. It'll probably happen sometime in April or May.

Okay, need to move!