Okay, so scratch that...

I was 227.8 today. I know, I know. My own fault. Alice came over with breakfast yesterday. And I thought, well, it won't hurt too much. I'm going to have to learn how to eat sometime, why not today. Let me just say, I PAID FOR IT. I have chrons disease and my intestines paid me back. I'm going to have to talk to her. I've told her before that I'm on a plan. After school today I'll have a chat and let her know that I can't spend another day in the bathroom ALL DAY.

So I had a great little 'accomplishment' last night. C and I still tuck all the kids into bed at night. I was in Syd's room talking to her and she stood up and hugged me. She looked up at me and said guess what mommy, my arms go all the way around you now. I about cried when I walked out of her room.

Okay, spent too much time in front of the computer today. Gotta get moving.

Happy Dancin...

226.6 today on my scale. I'm happy dancing all the way to the bank with that. Meme is down for a nap so I'm having some uninterrupted computer time. Thinking of all the things I should be doing right now. Like laundry, and vacuuming, and kitchen clean-up. She only 'let's me' vacuum while she's up. If I let her in the laundry room she terrorizes anything that I might have had clean!

Okay, going to move again.

Maybe it is safer here, but...

I still want someone to interact with. My MF board is getting hoakey right now so I've not been doing a lot of posting there. I guess I still feel like an 'outsider'. I love using the journal over there though. At least I get a little input. And I guess that I've always believed that people have to do what works for them as far as weight loss goes. If it's a great plan but you aren't going to stick with it then NO it isn't going to work for you. Period.

Well, weighed in at 227.6 today. I've been getting scale love lately and I'll take it. I've decided that I'm going bottom shopping next Monday when C is off work and can keep the baby home. I'm excited. I also thought that if I wait that long and keep on track I might possibly buy 18's instead of 20's. Even if they are a little snug. At least then I know I can't get lazy. Not comfortable with top shopping yet. Shirts these days are short and I'm still not comfortable with my midsection. So, I'll keep wearing what I have til I'm comfy with the stomach and maybe then I'll get new stuff. Depends on the $$ right now too.

Okay, gotta move, it's girl scout night tonight.

So, it's been awhile

Well, I have decided not to share this blog with my family. I have decided it is going to become MY blog. I will deal with whatever I wish to deal with here. I have been posting on a MF forum. I have a journal there. I keep posting and seeing all of the other people interacting. I feel very stupid saying this but it's one of those things that I feel...it's that 'if we just ignore her maybe she'll go away..." on that forum. I respond to people's posts. I comment on things and like two out of a hundred people have actually talked to me. I wanted to have some support like I did when I was on the 100+ to lose board. I'm dying for someone to connect with to be able to share and support in this journey.

I was stalled at 233 for two full weeks. Still mostly on plan just a few 'off plan' times. Okay, I pretty much cheated all weekend this weekend...On Friday I weighed in at 233.2 Monday I started at 237.6. I weighed in at 231.6 this morning. I'm very excited about that. My parent's are coming out to visit on Nov. 2 and I want to surprise them when they get here.

My mom joined some biggest loser competition at her job. She said she's already lost four pounds this week. Good for her. I hope that one day I can be as small as she is.

She's hoping to lose 20#'s during her competition.

I'm excited to lose weight. I feel better. I told C that if I kept losing I was going to have to go out and buy new pants. I have one pair of capri's that fit right now. The rest stay on but I've taken to rolling the top of them to get them to stay up. How gross is that? And seriously, we just don't have the $$ to spend. Not if I'm going to continue to MF. I will spend apx 200-300/mo on their food. Depends on what I buy. I have enough food in the cupboard to last at least one more month. I guess we can go from there.

Okay, gotta move or something.

Welcome to day FOUR

Here I am again. Day four of medifasting. Okay, officially day four but I had a cheat dinner last night because of Corey's birthday. We ordered Chinese takeout for dinner. I didn't eat the rest of the day so I could 'save up' for it. I weighed myself this morning and I still lost a pound since yesterday. Since Sunday morning I have lost 7.2 pounds. I honestly cannot believe it. I am back on track today. I have had my morning shake. Taken my slew of vitamins. On glass four of water (apx. 17 oz each glass). Not too bad for only being 11:15 am! I have been reading a medifast board and I'm feeling so good about this.

Well, I'm going to go paper journal. There are certain things that I will not post here! (my weight being one of them)

Here we go again, AGAIN

Well, I am starting to Medifast AGAIN. This will be the third or fourth time, not sure exactly. I have decided that I need to get my butt moving again and this will be a nice quick start to it. I know I can't medifast forever so I am going to do this strictly for two weeks and then start to switch over to the Good Mood Diet plan. I am up and ready to start my day. I am going to go find a workout video to do while screaming meme is sleeping. I know I can do this.

again, ugh

Okay, so I had every intention of making this a blog where my family could come and read about my kids. We are living so far away from everyone that I though this would be a nice way to keep them updated. That's great right, except that I can hardly get on here to update. And instead of updating I want to vent. I NEED SOMETHING. I am trying to lose weight. I am a stay at home mom. The kitchen is right over there>>>> And I have FOUR KIDS THAT WANT TO PLAY THE COMPUTER. I spend my days trying to come up with a way for us to make more money. What can I sell? What qualities do I have that someone would pay for? We are at the end of our financial rope. We are paying for an empty house in Indiana while paying outrageous rent on a house down here. I need to make some money $$$